Internet Dating (and stuff)

I have found myself involved in some very weird and possibly awkward situations as of late. I'm not particularly fond of drama, but somehow I seem to attract it to me. And it never really involves me, I just get pulled into it inadvertently. Okay, maybe I do put myself in some of those drama-creating situations, but I try my best not to. I have enough drama in my head, I don't need it spilling outside of that. Without going into any great detail, because some of the drama involves my job and the possible loss of that job and writing about it will only make it worse if my job ever decides to try to find me here too, but it involves a film project with surprisingly no nudity. You'd think THOSE would draw the attention of the man, not some silly little shit where I don't even show my tits or ass. Stupid.

A couple weeks ago, I went to my first tweetup/meetup. It was... interesting. I drank waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy too much and met a lot of people who's names I only remember now because I'm following them on twitter. I can hold my liquor like a champ and even my closest friends can't tell when I'm so lit up I could set a match on fire with my hair, but it still doesn't excuse the fact that I drank too much and definitely felt it the next day. Being at this meetup reminded me of online dating. I did that when I was just out of high school, I had just moved to small-town Colorado, from large-town Washington, and I really wanted to make some friends. So I hopped on AOL, listed my location and sex, and just watched as the chats started coming in. Eventually I gave out my phone number, which most guys calling me had to wait through the busy-signal before someone would get off the fucking internet long enough to answer the phone, then tie that up all night. NEVER in a million years would I have ever pegged myself for that girl, but I was, and I LOVED it.

I met so many people back in 1998-1999, made out with several of them, and then never spoke to them again. Or we went on a couple of dates and I realized that meeting people on the internet was just too weird. And here I am again, over 10 years later, meeting people that I've met online and enjoying myself. I have no idea how many of the people there were married, dating, engaged, or in some sort of relationship, but even before I had my 2nd beer, I recognized that it was the same today as it was when I was 18, except that I wasn't looking for a relationship, and now I'm legally allowed to drink.